This song has been stuck in my head for three days...
On My Way To You-Jamie O'Neal
I worked a little while in a little town in Colorado
But the winters were just a little bit too long
So I decided California was the place that I'd go
And I was gone
Fell in love, got my heart broke down in San Diego
I was off and driftin' any way the wind was blowin'
That was then, way back when
I didn't have a clue where I was goin'
No, I had no way of knowin' I was
On my way to you
There were things I didn't understand
I didn't see the plan
But now I do
There were no mistakes and no bad moves
No, I wouldn't change a thing that I went through
On my way to you
What if I'd have stayed an extra day or left a week too early
Who's to say my path and yours
Would have had a chance to cross
At the time I couldn't see the line
Connectin' each and every little dot
Keepin' me from getting lost
On my way to you
There were things I didn't understand
I didn't see the plan
But now I do
There were no mistakes and no bad moves
No, I wouldn't change a thing that I went through
On my way to you
I'm glad I didn't chance direction, no
Not one minute or a second
On my way to you
There were things I didn't understand
I didn't see the plan
But now I do
There were no mistakes and no bad moves
No, I wouldn't change a thing that I went through
On my way to you
17 August 2006
11 August 2006
Running Forward, Taking a Few Steps Back
Well, tomorrow is the 5k. The guy and I have been training for it for 3-4 weeks, and although we aren't really in good shape, we're in good enough shape to run it. Its really nice to have someone who doesn't mind going out and doing something active with me...running, soccer, whatever. What's even better is knowing he still thinks I'm pretty when I'm all sweaty and yuck. Then tomorrow afternoon we get to go to the ritzy shopping center an hour and a half away and waste some money.
Besides that, I'm moving back in with the 'rents by the end of the month. I know its only temporary (~4mos) but it still feels like a step in the wrong direction. I know when I find out about grad school I'll feel a bunch better about it, but its pretty abysmal right now. Of course, a bunch of my hs friends have recently or will soon move back to my hometown as well, so I'll get to spend more time with them. Then again, I'll be further from the guy. It might be a dry run to find out how the long distance thing will work with us. I hope it all goes well.
Short post today...I feel like I'm in a hurry, but that's because new things keep coming up.
Besides that, I'm moving back in with the 'rents by the end of the month. I know its only temporary (~4mos) but it still feels like a step in the wrong direction. I know when I find out about grad school I'll feel a bunch better about it, but its pretty abysmal right now. Of course, a bunch of my hs friends have recently or will soon move back to my hometown as well, so I'll get to spend more time with them. Then again, I'll be further from the guy. It might be a dry run to find out how the long distance thing will work with us. I hope it all goes well.
Short post today...I feel like I'm in a hurry, but that's because new things keep coming up.
07 August 2006
The Tide of Life
Life is so odd.
I have been in a state of happiness for the past 73 days for sure. This is a pretty darn long time for me. Its definitely due to the relationship that began, hmm, 73 days ago. Strange how that works. I, the girl who wants too much without really wanting anything, have found more than I could have hoped for. Sure, we're probably still in the "honeymoon" of our dating, where the other can do on wrong (except maybe break your glovebox) and even when they do wrong, you just smile and kiss and everything is better. I'm sure there will be disagreements and moments other than pure bliss, but he's the kind of guy that I wouldn't mind fighting with if it meant we got to make up later. Plus we're building up such great communication skills with each other that I can't see us not eventually smoothing out the edges.
So this is good news for me for sure.
But now that I don't have to worry about me, being the worrier I am, I've been looking around at my friends. I know that not everyone can be happy all the time, and not every relationship works, but I worry about, pray for, and cry for many of my friends. The relationships that seem perfect, are on their way to marriage, and then end suddenly for seemingly no reason. The women who are too afraid to let anyone close enough to ever find love. The ones who are too deeply invested to realize how miserable they are at the end of each day. The ones who are willing to start their life over to be with someone. The ones who no longer have the support of their mother and father to make it through the difficult times in life. The ones that are willing to settle for anything less than the right thing.
I find myself wishing, and sometimes trying, to fix everyone, tell them the best way to deal with situations. But I can't do that. I am very different than most of my friends. While many of our core values are the same, tolerance levels and ability to sacrifice varies greatly from one of us to the next. What is best for me is not best for her or the next girl. Plus, I don't have all the answers. I got lucky.
Besides, I've had my fair share of screw-ups and stupid decisions...maybe some of my friends just aren't yet to a place where they are ready to stumble upon happy.
My advice, to myself and anyone else, is just make sure you're happy. I don't mean that in a selfish way, but in a deserving way. We're good people. If you're unhappy, figure out why. Try to do something about it. If you can't directly solve the problem, find ways to bring greater satisfaction from the other areas of your life.
Don't settle for anything less than livin' the good life...
I have been in a state of happiness for the past 73 days for sure. This is a pretty darn long time for me. Its definitely due to the relationship that began, hmm, 73 days ago. Strange how that works. I, the girl who wants too much without really wanting anything, have found more than I could have hoped for. Sure, we're probably still in the "honeymoon" of our dating, where the other can do on wrong (except maybe break your glovebox) and even when they do wrong, you just smile and kiss and everything is better. I'm sure there will be disagreements and moments other than pure bliss, but he's the kind of guy that I wouldn't mind fighting with if it meant we got to make up later. Plus we're building up such great communication skills with each other that I can't see us not eventually smoothing out the edges.
So this is good news for me for sure.
But now that I don't have to worry about me, being the worrier I am, I've been looking around at my friends. I know that not everyone can be happy all the time, and not every relationship works, but I worry about, pray for, and cry for many of my friends. The relationships that seem perfect, are on their way to marriage, and then end suddenly for seemingly no reason. The women who are too afraid to let anyone close enough to ever find love. The ones who are too deeply invested to realize how miserable they are at the end of each day. The ones who are willing to start their life over to be with someone. The ones who no longer have the support of their mother and father to make it through the difficult times in life. The ones that are willing to settle for anything less than the right thing.
I find myself wishing, and sometimes trying, to fix everyone, tell them the best way to deal with situations. But I can't do that. I am very different than most of my friends. While many of our core values are the same, tolerance levels and ability to sacrifice varies greatly from one of us to the next. What is best for me is not best for her or the next girl. Plus, I don't have all the answers. I got lucky.
Besides, I've had my fair share of screw-ups and stupid decisions...maybe some of my friends just aren't yet to a place where they are ready to stumble upon happy.
My advice, to myself and anyone else, is just make sure you're happy. I don't mean that in a selfish way, but in a deserving way. We're good people. If you're unhappy, figure out why. Try to do something about it. If you can't directly solve the problem, find ways to bring greater satisfaction from the other areas of your life.
Don't settle for anything less than livin' the good life...
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