Longing

Lately I've been having very strong feelings of longing. Longing to be without big decisions, longing to see people, longing to sleep, longing to be healthy, etc. I just hate feeling like everything is just slightly out of my reach. Everytime something moves close and I reach for it, it slips through my fingers. I feel like I'm going crazy.

I know there are so many people who love me and care about me, but sometimes I just want to hear someone say it, unprompted. I mean, my parents tell me that they love me everytime they see me or talk to me on the phone. But that's just what we do in my family. I also worry that I don't tell people often enough that I love them. Have people given up on me because I'm so bad at sharing how I feel?

Its weird to feel that hearts are so close emotionally when they are physically hundreds and thousands of miles apart.