Agitated

Today I wish I had never gotten out of bed.

I, am angry today. The last few weeks I've had a lot of trouble getting out of bed on time. Been late to work, felt like a big slug, and I've felt a little guilty not working as much as I'm officially supposed to. But this morning was different. I got out of bed. I hauled ass, and I pulled in to the parking lot at 7:30am. I was so proud of myself. I was proud because I was making an effort, and today was the day I was going to run my first test for my thesis.

So much for that.

I am a contractor for the government. By now I should realize that nothing ever gets done on time. Considering the fact that I am already pushing my graduation back by a semester, I do realize this. But this is my thesis. This isn't just some project that has not real expectations. There isn't some other project I can work on instead. This is the only work I have.

And it keeps getting put off.

This morning my boss delivers the wonderful news that he has been assigned to put out a fire that doesn't exist, and that in the meantime, no new tests are to be run. He's hoping that by tomorrow we'd be able to start, but with Turkey Day being Thursday, I really won't get to start until Monday.

So, yay for that.

Now, anyone who knows about my project would just say, well, isn't your advisor one of the government guys? Why, yes he is. He should be able to throw his weight around. This shouldn't be a problem. Oh, wait. That's right. Today marks the beginning of my advisor's two weeks of leave to care for his wife and baby after her c-section this morning. He told me before he left that although he was taking two weeks off, I couldn't afford to. Ha. He did give me his home contact information incase there were any issues that needed his help. But I have decided that his wife having a baby is a little more important to him right now than my crisis, so I'll let him be, at least until Monday.

Of all the days to have a c-section...

I guess its just not my year.